Hi.

Hi i js feel like logging this vent.

So well howeve all i do is complain rather than acc do shi. I like to tell myself that it'll all get better when i move out from this house but those are just excuses. Plus moving out isnt even possible if i keep being this way. Its js so fckin tiring and exhausting. I hate people. When I'm at school i say home will feel better, and when im at home i say school will feel better. Nothing really feels better though. Everything js feels hopeless . Everything's just there. Never changing and if changing its always negative changes. I feel really suffocated and stuck. Idek what to do. How can people just be carefree and happy and perform while i struggle with the most basic things ever. Why can't i just be normal? Normal like everyone else. They study they work, even if they aren't the happiest, they don't just go numb and rot. They still do what they need to do. Why am i not as strong? Im js such a useless piece of ***. My mom deserves better. Everyone around me deserve better. I wish i could just perform,be regular. Js fulfill my duties. But no i cant do ***. Ffs fml. I really wanna js run into a jungle and die (no im not in crisis i wont acc do anything). Good lord. I js keep yapping now. Why am i so clingy with people. Ykw maybe i should js stop talking rn. F it.