How to deal with disappointment

Everyone around em just disappointed me and let me down. I have such a huge abandonment wound from my childhood. I don't think I'll ever experience true friendship or relationship. I don't even think that actually exists. I've been hurt too many times to trust again. But in the same time, throughout my difficult times I met amazing strangers that were willing to help and listen. Does this mean great people still exist? I truly don't know what to think. Even the concept of people cheering up each other is so new to me. My family never did that and it's just such a hard realization that not every family is like that. It just t hurts. 

Why random strangers are kinder than my family? It just hurts.

I wish my life was just a nightmare I could wake up from. 

It truly feels like a drama movie. 

This post is a bit all over the place. 

I just needed to get it off my chest.