I am trembling

Living in chronic stress but i never got a panic attack. But anxiety attacks are very intense. Entire muscles in the body pain so much, legs and hands are trembling, but not enough to be visible to others. Tightness in the jaw. Heaviness in the chest, slightly fast breathing. Each anxiety attack lasts for 3-4 hours. It drains me completely. Entire energy goes into keeping me alive. And then people around me call me lazy.

Typing this, sitting with some relatives, they don't have any idea what i am going through. All hiding inside.. i hope tomorrow will be better. Don't know when God will finally stop punishing me.

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Siddharth.