I can't handle thus

Iam sprry i cant i cant handle this i cant speak about this i cant talk about it its eating me eating me like leech *** my blood put of my soul please get me stronger God please take nw to ease please pull this thing out of me pull these things out of me please Gpd dp something please i feel like it will stop me breathing npw i can't o d9nt wanna iam saying myself its ok ok everything will bcz ok its ok but what should i say to my chest what should i reply to myself my version who is scared to dth