Intrusive thoughts

Yooooo my intrusive thoughts have been getting way worse over the few months and I've tried everything to make them either go away or go down!!!!! This thanksgiving I have to go to my dad's house and clean fohim, and cook for him. The last time I was with my dad my intrusive thoughts were so bad I AHAHA almost acted on them! Can you believe that? When I go cook with my dad, I will be around so many dangerous things I really shouldn't be near.

I feel like I won't have control over them this time, might me hard for me to keep them back. Does anyone have any ideas to maybe make me not actually on my thoughts, or maybe not think about them? I'm desperate 😭