I think I need support
Hi. I have not written here since forever.
I feel really unsupported. And it is messing with my mind. I paused all future plans to take care of my mental health. I saw my doctor. It seems the anti depressant is not working after a month. I suppose that is okay, that it is a process. I... wish I had friends. Stable friends. Seeing my one friend once in two months is not feeling enough. I need to be held. And embraced and lifted. I am afraid of the future. I am afraid of how fast things are moving. My roommates who I love very much are going their own way in a few months. It has been the only home that I felt so safe. And independent at the same time. And I have to say goodbye to it. I am terrified. They are my biggest supporters for months now. I want to do my own things yes. But I am so afraid and alone. I need to be held for a month straight. I do not know how... to receive support. I have tried reaching out but people usually scatter. They are afraid when they hear I need them.
@honestLand6397
Hey, I'm so sorry that your feeling that way. I completely understand, but life is a journey and sometimes you hit storms. Many people fear the future and that ok, but don't stress too much about it, its not going to change it. Try relaxing, picking up hobbies, and doing things you like. Try to enjoy life and live in the moment, don't overthink everything its hard to pause your brain but try meditation or relaxing videos. As for friends I understand, friends come and go and unfortunately we can't do anything about it, you might have to learn to be comfortable with being alone because it helps make life easier. I had to as well. but you will get there, try reading or watching movies when you feel extremely alone. You got this and I hope you feel better. :)
