Life

From a long time i have been feeling lost in life. I know every single thing that happening but I always lying to myself that it's nothing, I'm happy I'm not stressed etc etc and It works most of the time.

Last month i just finished a very competitive exam (according to my country it's a very imp exam) for taking this exam prep I wanted to be detached from everything in my life like friends, best friend, hangouts, fun ik that what I am done was right bcz it helps me to study without distraction but I faced several traumatic moments during this months before the exam only people belongs from critical families know that how much these things effects on mental health...

I have a sis whom I trust the most and Even if our age gap is too big still I'm close with her so much but recently she was get married and become very busy with her own life . She is the one who always heal me from my depression and stress but now she is also unavailable which makes me more stressed about everything. I have only few friends one of them is very close to me but even if she trust me like her best friend i can't do that for trust issues . Not only trust issues one problem is different mentality , we are completely different type of person but still our rlsn became like besties! Idk why and how it's happened maybe it's because of our respectful and non judgemental mindset?!? Idk... however i can't even tell her as the way she tell me everything and it's make me sad whenever i about this

This is the short form story about my problems but here's more things which make me feels like if there is any way for escape from my life it would be so good..

Normally this the only place (this app) where i can find peace during my stress. I read others problem and the comments section replies then my own waves are becoming low! Peoples are so good in this community that i can't believe at first they are real human or not!! I wish if everyone were that much good over the world...