Lost

This year has been frankly a horrible year for me. I went through so much and been knocked down so many times. It feels like all my efforts were for nothing. I've been neglected by my parents, let down by people I trusted and now I am just a big mess. I sabotaged some relationships with people, and I feel like I have no future. 

I al trying my hardest to not give up but it feels like everything is just falling apart. 

I am just exhausted. 

My exams are soon and I just want to give up. 

I feel like a dumb, useless person that will never ever achieve anything.

I am also guilty of feeling sorry for myself most of the time. I know it's not helping me but I can't stop. I can't stop myself from imagining the life I could have had if my parents were supportive