Lost
Me and this man was having so much fun...by the time I looked up from the fun I realize I was pregnant. We both agreed on abortion but as I'm going thru it alone I found out he has a GF... We leave each other alone for months and even tho I know he has a GF I still miss him. We link up chill vibe and lay up and he leaves but I still feel a void and I know I'm crazy for feeling it and I wonder why my self worth is so low too feel some type of way about somebody who doesn't even care about me, honestly never did. I wonder if it's because I'm fat as ever and they just see me as somebody to lay up and sex on or if I'm giving them that type of vibes. I do be hurt once they leave but it's like a cycle that I really want to break because I do deserve love from a man.
The feelings you're having don’t make you “crazy” at all; they’re a reflection of unmet needs and hurt. You deserve more than being a temporary comfort to someone who isn't showing up for you.
I'm sorry you've felt this way. It's completely normal to miss people in our lives even when they hurt us. I believe you could love someone with all your heart even if that person doesn't care about you. It would only mean you have a beautiful heart. And I think you have that. All you have to do now is love yourself as well. You do that by choosing not to be with them even if you miss them. And as you said, you do deserve a loving man. I'm sure he will find you soon.