Need to vent
Lately I've been through constant and severe stress due to complicated life circumstances, trauma flashbacks well a lot of negative stuff. So I am always irritated and jumpy , nervous and on edge. Everyday I feel like I am on the edge of a mental breakdown and that I am sick and tired of everything. Even sleeping doesn't help!!! I wake up completely exhausted!!!!! I am so sickkkkkk of this! What have I done to deserve such a horrible life. No one lives me or cares about me and it make sme more and more miserable. I'm starting to hate everyone and think that everyone wants to use me or will betray me. I don't even wanna start new friendships because I am so sure that everyone will betray and leave me at the end. I AM SICK OF THIS. So today I lashed out on my dad because of something he said. It wasn't anything particularly mean or something but it reminded me of something very very bad and it cause me to completely lose my cool. I was trying hard not to lash out but I did. It's like just came out of me. All this hurt that I endured that past 3 years, all the pain it just went out. I was trying to bottle it up because no one cares around me to listen(except some people but they're always busy so we talk maximum several times a month and only by phone) and we'll it all went out. I feel so ashamed of myself. But I am so much in pain. And no one gets me. I hate it. Hate it, hate it , hate it. I was trying so hard to repress my emotions and it all explosed now.. Screw it. I'm sick of everything and everyone. I'm just done with Earth and people. Everyone is so horrible anyways.
Screw it all.
@23helicopters 😞😢 I love you ❤ huggs you tightly
Looking back I was way too emotional. But I was overwhelmed!! Like right now. The whole world is going too fast. And I have so little support but I am soooo thankful that I have you❤️❤️❤️ you really bring me joy and hope. I am so thankful for you. Huggs you too bestie ❤️❤️❤️
@23helicopters 😘😘 huggg for my bestie ❤❤
@23helicopters
Hiii. Sounds like you're caryying an overwhelming pain and immesnee emotional burden, I'm sorry.
It must feel really isolating to experience extreme intense stress and trauma flashbacks when it seems those around you might not fully understand your struggle.
Feeling constantly on edge and exhausted is understandable and really tough to handle.
Lashing can be a natural response to overwhelming pain, even when it leaves you feeling ashamed afterwards. Bottling up emotions often leads to eventual explosion, and it's not your fault it happened. You're human, and humans have limits.
It might seem like there's no light at the end of the tunnel right now, but reaching out shows your incredible strength.
While I can't fully understand your pain, just know that you don't have to face this all alone. I'm one of the hundreds here who will be there to support you through this 💜
@HachiBee
Aww thank you so much! It warms my heart! I need to do a lot of soul searching and just try to do therapy by myself.
It's wayy to expensive here.
But thank you sooo much!!❤️
@HachiBee
Aww thank you so much-! It means a lot❤️
Thank you!
I have a lot of therapy to do on my own(it's too expensive here) and try to reparent myself😭 so good luck to me and to all of us!! I hope we all get through our hard times and will feel happy and fulfilled 💜🩷🩷💜
@23helicopters
You're absolutely welcome 💜 You got this, yeah? Wishing you all the best on your self-discovery. Remember, you're not alone, our community here stands with you 🌟💜 Sending more huggiess 💜🤗
Thank youu! It's really what I needed right now💜 words of encouragement 💜 they mean so much to me💜
It's okay to feel sad, angry and depressed. It's okay to not feel okay. Dont repress your feelings instead discuss them openly with someone you trust like your parents. Or if you dont have this option always feel free to come talk with someone in here. Don't keep those feelings inside and try to get ride of the things that make you feel those bad feelings if possible. Also, remember if you hurting that doesn't mean it's okay to hurt someone else remember everyone is fighting their own demons. A lot of hugs and support to you from here 💗💜
@Jack22001188 hi-jack ❤ haha! Hijack 😂😂😂😂😂
@Jack22001188I can't tlak to my parents because they are mainly the reason I feel so miserable. I have only seven cups. And even here I feel unsupported, like nobody cares. Especially in the support room! It's always the same people and they are not welcoming at all! So we'll I just feel dumb when I say hello because no one replies to me. Like what? But well never mind. People in the forum are much better tho❤️ but it's not enough. It's not helping me to ease the pain you know. But still I'm glad I have this app.