Negative feeling stuck inside of me
TW self harm
It's so weird but i can feel all the negativity and sadness stuck in my body. I used to completely not pay attention to my feelings and was trying to drown them but now i finally decided that it was enough and i should just sit and feel them. Now i'm much more aware of them and it's a good thing, but the thing is i can physically feel them. It's like there's something heavy in my chest. I wanna get rid of it but don't know how. It's almost like it's blocking me and it makes it so hard to breathe.
Lately i've been also paying attention more to my sadness and i noticed that when i wanna cry it's so hard to do so. My tears won't come. I am sure that's due to all the years of repressing my sadness but it's so annoying that now that i actually wanna feel it and don't run away from it it can't come!! It's annoying!! I just wanna let it out. It feels like it's a massive weight and it won't let me go forward.
It's blocking me from being happy and growing into a better person. I also realized that was the reason why i was self harming. I just needed bad an outlet for my emotions and it was the only way that i could think of at this time. I was never actually thinking why i was doing it and was afraid to reflect on it but now i'm way too sick and tired of everything so i wanna look at all my past experiences and analyze them in order to learn and to heal. Because i deserve healing and i'm so done of feeling miserable. I wanna let go and move on.
@schrodingerscattt I really wish I was there with you to just hug you ❤ I've really come to care about you as a friend, and it breaks my heart to see you struggle so bad😞 I think your so very brave trying to confront your feelings instead of avoiding them, your much braver than me ❤ I think your next step is to try and get this heavy weight of your chest, I know you said bits and pieces, but maybe you need to get it all out to really vent your whole story and all your feelings. I know that doing that is very difficult, I wouldn't be able too. I just don't really know what to do it say to help you properly😞 just know that I love you and I'm always here for you ❤ we all are, you are cared about very very much ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ hugs you in my heart forever and ever ❤ if I can do anything please let me know ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hi. Right now i am just exhausted. I am at a breaking point. I'm just so done of life making me miserable. I'm sorry but i need a break right now. I posted way too many forum posts and now i struggle bad to reply to everyone so sorry if it takes time.. I'm just so exhausted right now and the only thing i wanna do is too get through alive until the end of this year😭Screw self love and all these things i just wanna make it out alive of this living ***
@schrodingerscattt you will make it don't worry. And next year things will be better, I am the magic Xmas fairy angel, and I'm gonna cover you in magic dust, if love and happiness ❤ everything is gonna be ok ❤❤hugggs you
@Tinywhisper11
Thanks😭I literally was crying my eyes out the past hour so i needed it💙
@schrodingerscattt crying is good for you, it realeses endorphins into your body, that will make you feel a bit better. Gives you the giantist tiny hug eveerrrr ❤ holds you tightly ❤ it's gonna be ok sweetie ❤ we are here for you every step of the way ❤
@schrodingerscattt
Hello there🤍 thank you for open up about what you have been through. I am so proud of you for aware of what you felt. You know I have been there too I know everything you explain. There is just this unexplainable negativity and sadness right? but you dont know why? because it is like unknown
When you face a lot of problems it’s make you exhausted mentally and physically other words you are dealing with a lot of pain. That something heavy in your chest I ever felt that and it is not comfortable at all it’s making you feel super tired, wanna do self harm because you already deal with a lot of pain but you confused what is it about and you feel like in the dark room after that heavy chest thats what lead you to self harm like wanna distracted yourself from all of the sadness and something that bothering you.
You tried to solve your problems I can see that🥹😃you are so bold🤍 yk when there’s a lot going on it’s making you feel like nothing and the tears cannot come out but yes it is due to repressing ur sadness too. I know what you have been through isnt easy but trust me with time you will get there you will getting better🤍 I promise you this shall too pass🤍 I believe in you🤍
Well it is undeniable it’s making us being unhappy and feel like stuck☹️it can be the reason too but it is okay🤍healing is not a linear okay?🤍 in the past i self harm too then to make decision to heal from it isnt an easy things to do can make you lose hope too sometimes. You are very strong🤍 it is okay if you wanna heal but still not yet figure out everything. You got this! as someone that have this kind of experience I can guarantee you that you will getting better 🤍 I am here if you wanna talk more about self harm okay? you are not alone🤍 you are so wonderful🤍💜💗❤️💚🩷🤎💙🧡💛🩶🩵we all here will support you through your journey!