New and unsure how to start
I never reach out to people like this and produce the results i want. Reaching out always felt pointless because no one really understands and its often more complicated than i am capable explaining in one message. There is a lot to me. Past trauma i have had to learn to cope with alone. And current problems that seem to plague me daily. Things i once found enjoyment in i no longer feel the same enjoyment from. I still feel those small moments of joy. But they are fleeting and dont last very long. Before the stress of life floods back.
My current problems lie in my lack of motivation and discipline to better myself and move forward even though i need to do certain things to help myself. I've spent so long trying to just survive that i never learned how to properly take care of myself. I do what i can now. I work hard i pay my bills but its starting to affect me physically and the stress of that is killing me mentally.
Those fleeting moments of joy are important, even if they feel small. They can be a reminder that there is still light in your life, even when things feel heavy. It might help to focus on those moments and try to create more of them, even in little ways. Since you mentioned feeling like reaching out often feels pointless, consider starting small. Maybe try sharing just one specific thing that’s on your mind or a small victory from your day. You don’t have to explain everything at once; just opening up a bit can sometimes relieve the pressure.