Receieved 2 writeups yesterday one more is suspension the 5th is termination
my life is spiraling. my workplace rules have gottren so nuanced n relaxed overtime and seemed be the norm. i was sitting with my patient in two shifts with me suttung across the table with my phone watching netflix n her fam came by. the second time i was with her i waa playing on my phone and took a call outside her room during my work time. the family didnt like it ans reported me and i got two writeups one for using a phone while with them and the other for stepping outside to take a call: i read both my notice and noticed im on my 3rd strike. if i get a fourth its a suspension and 5th its a termination. i was so horrified about what happened n really saw i neeed to change for myself and stopping being so lazy with work and clumsy i started to carry a notebook with all the rules and things im told i cant do or can do what im allowed explicitly so i am sure . i also changed my mind set to keep ujderstand work is a ppace to work not goof off. i also made sure to ask if im with patients sitting with thwm and made clearance rhat they said were only allowed to use electronics only phone to call our managers for emergencies regarding our patients. we are only allowed to use eeldtroncs is if its a overnight shift, the patient is asleep and in bed. my job is a senior sitter. i was so distressed i tried to reaxh the CTL but theree was nobody anawering at all and i was so distressed. this amounts to the bad luck ive been getting like getting a speeding ticket fot being lazy, and being scammed online about a month ago for stupid advertising social media sorta thing. i always just realize i keep falling in holes and also with work i feel and worry im a ticking time bomb where if i make a misrake im screwed and i know if i was at even the best job in the world there always still mistakes or errors i can make no martee how much i tried . i just wished i was the kinda peraon who can be myself and not worry about anything like some people r. i wish i can have a listener to talk about all my issues im very sad now
@TeaGreenTea12
I'm sorry to hear that you are going through a tough time at work and in your personal life. It sounds like you have taken some positive steps to address the issues that led to the write-ups at work, such as carrying a notebook and asking for clearance before using electronics. It's great that you are taking responsibility for your actions and trying to improve your work ethic.
It can be difficult to feel like you are constantly walking on eggshells, worrying about making mistakes or being judged by others. It's important to remember that everyone makes mistakes, and it's okay to ask for help or clarification when you're unsure about something. It's also important to take care of yourself and practice self-care during difficult times.
If you feel like you need someone to talk to about your issues and concerns, you can connect 1-1 with a listener. It can be helpful to talk to someone about your feelings and concerns. Whether it's a friend, family member, or a professional therapist, having someone to listen and offer support can be a great comfort during difficult times. You can also try reaching out to your HR department or supervisor to discuss your concerns and ask for guidance on how to improve your performance.
Remember to be kind to yourself and take things one step at a time. It's okay to make mistakes, as long as you learn from them and strive to do better in the future 😊