The Summery of My Life.
I came up with the idea of writing this, while talking too several listeners. The problem is 7Cups isn't allowing me to post it. So I will need to post it in parts, cause I can't figure out what is breaking the code of conduct for posting.
I started life out with a childhood friend. Then I made another friend. Of course those friendships don't exist anymore.
I didn't pass Kindergarten. In Readiness, I was diagnosed with ADHD.
Making friends at Church and In school was awful. People were picking on me. 5th grade I started getting bullied in Sunday School.
The people at school were starting to get worse. 6th grade to graduation was being treated like trash. I went through all of this alone, struggling with ADHD. If it wasn't for my parents helping me with my homework. I probably wouldn't have graduated.
I think 7Cups will me post the rest of this without complaining.
The last year of High School, I finally got in a Church that I was able to have some friends, but no romantic relationships. But after just 3 years, the people got upset with the pastor, and his lying. The place split in half. I thought I could at least stay in contract with my very small group, but they wanted nothing to do with me, even though I did nothing but run a sound system. During those years I had a nervous break down.
I got two jobs, and lost them both. A year later with the help of vocational rehab I got a Custodian job. I worked at the school for 22 years. I didn't have very solid relationships. And was told not to talk those people. I was depressed and scared almost all the time. Lonely, and tired. Currently I'm trying to find a new job. Still friendless. I don't think life has been fair to me. But I guess there are people who got it worse, so there is that.
@tryingtosurvive2024
I don't know, too, why algorithms didn't let you make it a single post...
I know from my primary school experience how destructive for a young person's self-esteem bullying can be. Especially considering the fact it usually affects kids who have other family- or health-related burden...
You were not allowed to make friends or talk with people at your recent workplace??? Sounds terrible. Why? And by whom?
Actually, I have been wondering for some time how we here at 7 Cups could help you. You seem to be struggling very much to be seen and accepted. But it also looks as if other people were incapable to deliver what you are longing for, as if you needed to find it inside yourself, not in the outside world. Do you have any idea what the thing you are looking for might be?
@jacek73 I'm not working anymore. Don't feel bad, nobody can help me, not even me! My problem is like a sickness. I think I was born sick, and people took advantage of it and made me worse. But I don't want to leave 7Cups. If I leave here, I'll just go some place else and be sick there too.
You can be my friend if you want, but don't try to fix me. You will just burn out.
@tryingtosurvive2024
I am sorry if you had any impression that I would like to "fix" you. For me "fixing" someone could be like telling a Muslim to become a Christian, or telling someone who is happy listening to the Weeknd that Mozart should be the entire world for him, nothing else. That is "fixing"...
I have just been asking what would have to happen to make you feel happier.
@jacek73 7Cups didn't like a word I was using, but I couldn't find what word it is.
@tryingtosurvive2024 Dark times always come to an end! You will make it one day, i believe in you, and you should too!
@warmheartedAcres6619 🥰💜
