What’s going on with me? Why am I like this rant.

Hi. I’m Noah, I’m a 14 year old that makes random rants on here acting like people will actually care for it. I have another rant. Before I start, Trigger Warnings: running away, Cussing.

Also. Some stuff here is related to my run away rant from a while ago.

https://www.7cups.com/forum/generalsupport/General_2440/WellWherenow_322997/

I don’t understand what is going on with me. I ran away twice in the same day. And have had plenty of thoughts about doing it again. This is usually not me. Usually I am wanting to be home as it is basically the only escape to all my problems since I can be me. And I can have mental break downs and basically just let my issues go. But I guess that is just out of my mind now. Because I mean. Like I said. I ran away, I don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore. The fact I ran away. Or the fact I think people still care for me. I make these rants all the time. They are basically my job now. I don’t know why. For the people that didn’t know. I was a runaway for 3 hours the morning. Then I came back. I was lectured by my mom about fc and stuff. And how she will put me in foster care if I don’t quit my stuff. The thing is that I’ve explain to her 100th’s of times about my issues. And the fact I can’t control them, and she *** knows I can’t. But I decided to run again at 6PM. I ran a hour after the lecture. Because I was just done and couldn’t handle it anymore. My mom noticed an hour later and called the cops. I knew because I was in the nearby forest. But after a few hours I walked a few miles the other way. I slept there. It was a comfy spot. But after a few hours the next morning (today) I was found my a cop. I was brought home and lectured a whole 3 chapter books worth of stuff. Most of it was about foster care and how she can’t do it anymore and will put me in foster care. I just ignored it and dealt with it.

This is kinda what leads me to make this rant. I don’t know what’s gone into me. I’ve never wanted to *** run from my problems. Usually I’m forced to handle them head on. Alone. I guess I kinda snapped and wanted to just stop, I was super stressed because of school and work. And other non-related stuff. And I just could not handle them head on anymore. I had to run, it was my only choice.

This post was mainly made to say that I am home and safe now. I love you all. (if anyone actually read this whole rant then you are amazing). I just wanna say. Thanks to the people that helped me lose some stress while I was ran away and out and about. You guys proved to me that some people actually care for me. I’m also sorry to the people I upset because of my stress.

Love you all ❤️. I’ll have a new rant coming soon when I have more problems (which always happens)