Wtf is this

Lately, I’ve been feeling something new. Something happened with my dad and where I used to live which was a little traumatic, but it’s been almost two months since then. So I don’t think I’m affected anymore.

the only way I can explain how I’ve been feeling is almost like I feel nothing or don’t bother to feel anything unless it’s something I can laugh at. Recently someone very important to me decided to leave my life and I haven’t cried over it. When I display my emotions or feel certain emotions such as anger or sadness, they are pretty intense. Many people have suggested I might be bipolar 1 but I haven’t been professionally diagnosed yet so I haven’t thought of whether that is the cause of how I’m feeling now.

i don’t feel numb. I don’t feel depressed. But at the same time I don’t feel full of emotion like usual, it’s like I don’t care enough to feel anything. But it’s not like a “meh,” it’s seriously just like carelessness. I can’t cry, I can’t get enraged. I’ll laugh at a joke, I smile a lot— but I don’t think I’m satisfied enough in life to be happy.

can anyone help me on concluding what this might be? Or at least show that I’m not the only that’s felt this before?