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Lately, i realized how messed up my sleep was. I wasn't really paying attention to it but now i know why i am even more tired. On top of having so much clutter in my head, all these negative, anxious and sometimes scary dark thoughts, i just lack the energy to go through the day. I also have a bad sleep because every single night i dream about all my problems. It's all my problems in my waking life but much more intense somehow. Maybe it's my subconscious mind that is trying to deal with these problems. It's not really nightmares but really unpleasant dreams. It's usually me verbally fighting with some of my family relatives and then crying. I wake up feeling sad. It feel as though the dream was real and i was really in the living room of my aunt and she was shouting at me. It's so weird. I never experienced such vivid dreams. Before my problems with mental health my dreams were just average dreams and i couldn't remember the majority of them. And they didn't stick with me. Now i can remember the dreams i had last week so vividly as though it were real events in my life. Every emotion i feel in my life i feel it in my dreams but as i said it's much more intense. It's not a good and refreshing sleep and i wake up not ready to tackle the day. I want to deal with all these problems so my brain will be finally able to rest but it's impossible to deal with them all at once! I tried to do several relaxing techniques before going to bed but it didn't help. Every time i meditate i get this extremely weird feeling that my body is relaxed but there's just a spasm in my brain that won't go away and i can physically feel it if i pay enough attention. I don't know what it is! Maybe that's the stored trauma, pain and stress that is manifesting in this way. Now that i became more aware of my body, thanks meditation, i realized that my body is not feeling ok at all😭I have a lot of aches everywhere and my whole body is just tense throughout the day, thank you so much trauma and constant stress.
Even right now i can feel the pressure in my brain. I wanna start some yoga or another sport to maybe help my body and mind to feel better because now i am not feeling great. It's quite the opposite.
Have a great day/night and i am sending hugs to you all!!💖
@schrodingerscattt I'm sorry to hear you're having trouble sleeping and feeling tired. I can relate to that all too well. I was wondering with the dreams you're having do you journal? Maybe a dream journal would help?
@mytwistedsoul
I tried to journal about all my dreams but quickly stopped. I have trouble with staying consistent. But now i usually wake up, think about my dreams and what can they mean and then go on with my day.
Thank you so much for all your suggestions!
@schrodingerscattt awww sweetie have you spoke to a doctor about sleeping meds? I was having dreams like that so frightening I could feel people touch me like it was real. The doctor normally offers sleeping meds to try for a week or two. It might help. Otherwise try yoga like you said it another form of gentle exercises like a little walk. Then I suggest some relaxing music to fall asleep too and some calming lights. I will keep you in my prayers ❤❤ gives you a giant festive tiny hug❤ everything will be ok ❤ sometimes it helps to vent, and we are all here to support you in any way we can ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Awww thank you!!! You're so so sweet and kind! I didn't talk to my doctor about it yet. I wanna try yoga for now and then i'll see. Ideally it would be better to figure out all the problems that cause me mental turmoil but as it will take time i still have to have a good sleep.
Venting really helps and i still have so many things to say.
Thank you so much for listening and providing words of comfort it really means a lot💖
@schrodingerscattt yep! Venting can really help. Always here for you ❤❤ you vent as much you need, it can really out your thoughts on perspective for you ❤ gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hugggs you back❤❤❤❤
