writing my emotions

dont know where to start, it been days since I heard anything from my special person, my everything, my love of the life, I dont know how to continue without her, I am ready to do anything for her, I accept all my mistakes, I hope she will forgive me soon, I dont know what wrong I did to go through so much of suffering, its been weeks I havent slept properly, not able to sleep, not able to focus on anything, all the time just she is in my mind, and I am begging her for forgive me, begging her for one change all the time in my mind, she is bestest best girl in the this world, I wish all the happiness for her, I dont know why I have to go through this suffering when only thing I did way to love her more than anything else in this world, my love for her is only growing day by day, Dont know how long I have to suffer like this, I am just crying everyday, all the time while eating, while looking at moon in night she is more beautiful than moon, she is the first and only love of my life and of course last, as I will wait for till my last breath, I just dont know why this happen in our life, I wish she get all the happiness of my life, she deserve all the love, I think she might be missing me as well, dont know what think is stopping her from coming to me, I really cant livee without her, she is the most purest, most beautiful soul, she is first and the only person I got so connected with, got so attached, loved her more than myself, more than anything else in the world, I still love her same, and will wait for her till I am alive......