Academic/Artistic/General Motivation!!!

Hi!! I'm Eve, and I'm almost 16. 💕 I'm a creative writer and do that in addition to taking regular classes. I write a lot of poetry and draw v frequently but I really haven't been doing anything but listening to music, spacing out, & going on walks--

I struggle with a lot of existancialisms and mental illness so I don't get anything that I need or want to get done. If I have some accountability though I might get more done!! Maybe?? I dunno! I have to sort of parentify myself 'cause my parental figures aren't in my life, and I'm very unmotivated, so I need to find a reason to do things. I don't do my homework until last minute and have a lot of projects I start but never finish! So this is my check-in thread? :-D I really do want to better myself.