All I want is to heal

I came from a relationship where I've been nothing but miserable. I didn't have a voice, I couldn't be who I am, I didn't receive any love back.. I've been lied to, beaten up, yelled at, criticized, called names and bullied.. I've become a complete mess. On top of all that he did and didn't do, he's managed to cheat and blame it all on me, making me feel I'm not enough and I'm good for nothing so he looked for someone else. I know I'm not happy with him, but giving up the relationship is hard, especially since I've given this too much. I'm tired, I know I have to let go and I'm doing so very slowly, but everything is too painful I need to find some way to heal. I was in too deep, it's hard to go back to who I was and be whole again. I want to stop being broken but feel to weak to pick myself up. 😢