Ex Nihilo

Out of nothing nothing is born. I rot stained stale sterilized blank white into the faceless canvas rotting dead tears without a trace of joy without a touch of the tender or the vibrancy of the lost lonely little boy once i was dreaming away lost in the clouds.

Lost now without clouds without a sky left listless dreamlessly waiting to die as i deteriorate in the rancid charnel house of what remains the rest of the pieces here where there is no resting in piece. Dead to the world dead to myself. Downward depleted in the never ending sickness incurable on empty drained to the dregs broken pile of bones powdered in the pale white numbness of pills numberless clogged inside this brain dying to reboot the system

SOS SOS SOS

Every f**king day im wasting away wasting every day withering into worthlessness personified immobilized praying to yet again b galvanized im feeling nothing staring into the void cancerous clime aloof invisible waiting for the death knell to chime

This is insufferable suffering sickness i need help i need help

im dying and dont know how to save myself im drowning and cant save myself without learning how things move again with flowing blood flushed n2 thos system f**ked out of function for what i fear is forever SOS

SOS

SOS

I

NEED HELP

(Edited by Teen Forum Star @Emily619 for language)