I live with someone

Who is not with it at all. My love for this person is immense. Its my mom. But i have like anxiety when going to the city because she thinks that the city sucks ... And it would be like i would be betraying her if i went with the attitude that it doesnt suck. LIke i need to get a tractor driving job and keep it chill. this is clucky just trying to not stew and get things out in any way