Moving away

I've moved around more than any person I know in my life to be honest but this isn't about me. This is about someone I became very close to in the months that I knew him to the point that I dared to open myself up to him. Which for me is a big deal...with people I barely know. He is amazing, understanding, caring all that jazz and then he got a new job down south.

It didn't really hit me until his goodbye do and to be honest even though it was a few months ago...I think...it still feels fresh. It still hurts you know? I mean I become close to this person and then he's gone and though I've tried to reassure myself with thoughts of social media and stuff it doesn't work. Today when I was trying to work up the nerve to talk to him online when I desperately could have done with talking to him and I just couldn't do it.

And if anything I'm sure it's because I feel like I shouldn't taint him with my problems and stuff while he's doing amazing things down south. But I miss him...and honestly don't know what the hell to do or say. It's not the same...and I don't think that even if he came back up to visit that it would be the same. I feel like I've lost him...and maybe it was better for the both of us if I had.