Suicidal thoughts
Im a fairly popular guy, sporty and down to earth. I have a beautiful young family. A 3 month old girl and 4 yr old boy and amazing wife. I enjoy my job. But why on earth do I get this thought of ending it all? I would say suicide thoughts pop into my head about once a week. But lately I feel like its popping into my head more and more . Im not depressed , Im fairly sure of that. I have no real money worries. I feel like crying sometimes , and just want to cry it out but I feel stupid for even thinking about all this and dont want to worry close relations or time waste a doctor or stranger. Even writing this I feel silly and that Im wasting sometimes time, I know there is no stand out answer for me but I just feel I need some kind of outlet. I think even writing this has helped in a way?
thanks Paul
@Paulr1982 Hi Paul thanks for sharing with us in your post, about your feelings you have difficulty with around thoughts on suicide. I dont know if this would help you but here is a link which helps those who have experienced thoughts of suicide. https://www.moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/aboutsuicide/Suicide.asp This site also contains self help guides on depression etc
It sounds as if you have a lot going for you, with friends, family etc but I wonder how you feel about yourself as a person? Sometimes, people can have all the things you mention but for some reason find it hard to like themselves, or to feel they are an okay person and I wonder if this is sometimes how you may feel about yourself?
How long have you been experiencing thoughts of suicide and did anything happen back then which may have triggered these off for you? Are you under any present day stress factors which may be increasing those thoughts? I hear you say you dont feel you are depressed but there are all kinds of depression and this shows itself in many different ways. Perhaps it may be worth talking to someone you trust or a medical professional such as a GP about how you feel. Would this be possible for you to consider? If ever things get really bad for you, please keep this link for support at the time. www.suicide.org
Writing can be really cathartic and perhaps by writing a journal or writing in the forums here, it will help you to piece things together which may have led to you feeling as you do. Please do remember there are always people here too you can reach out to. You dont have to feel alone with this. Take care :)
hi i need to talk to someone right now i wanna die so much i can't explain how hard is it right now to breathe i've already try to kill myself 4 times and if i do one attempt my best friend will die of sadness and i dont want that so i dont wanna die but i cant breathe my heart dont have the courage to beat anymore so i dont know what to do please help me i need help right now im crying in my bed listenning to lil peep its 1pm and im still in my bed i havent sleep much i suffer from depression since 3 years i self harm a lot i have eatings disorders im gifted but im so dumb with people and life im also transgender my name is alex and im a boy i think this is all i needed to say so please help me i think im going to die im so scared my view is starting to disapear i feel everything and nothing i think im dying but i wanna live and be a happy boy but i cant be neither happy neither a boy thats why im dying rn so please save my life this would be such a great thing
@lilex
Hi Alex, I hope you are doing well. It sounds like a stressful and scary situation.
I hope you did reach out and find a suicide hotline to bounce some ideas off of and get some relief. Sometimes venting helps to decrease it.
I'm here to talk in the evenings, if you need help finding thr right support or to vent or brainstorm.
Hoping to hear from you!
@ReservedExcitement so sorry i havent replied sooner, i didnt know how does this thing works,
i'm getting better.. I've been hospitalized because of a suicide attempt, and they found my real sickness : bipolar, not depressed ! so they gave me a good treatment for bipolars, and i'm getting way better. Its damn hard to fight my addiction to self harming, i feel like i'll never really get over it, like i dont deserve a fight, i still have depressed, suicidal thought. But i'll get through this, i swear to you. Thanks for your message, bye <3
@lilex
Sometimes hospitals arent great and othet times they are helpful. Glad it worked out in your case. Don't be so hard on yourself, sometimes harm reduction is better than harm eliminate, because the latter is t possible and may be replaced with a more dangerous action.
@Paulr1982
It is not silly at all. Some thoughts of suicide are normal. We all think of it at times. What one social worker once said was that suicidal thoughts just mean you are feeling overwhelmed and it's time to do something to decrease the stress. Stress can be good or bad. The later people are more familiar with. But having a family and especially kids, can be stressful especially in this day and age of work. So it's okay, it may be a sign to destress. Maybe there is a thought bugging you, or you are drained from doing lots of things in one day. Stress could be anything that draws away your energy.
@Paulr1982
Hey Paul, and sorry to hear
