monotonous

so holidays passed and i did take leave off work (just to occupy the hotel reservations family made but decided to head elsewhere, no refunds if u know what i mean). i didnt really enjoy the time off work cause with mom. mom is getting old so she does ask questions with obvious answers. i also had it when they answer my question like it's obvious when it's not. for example i ask how much rice im gonna cook? answers OF COURSE THIS MUCH. and y ask that question? coz sometimes aunt drops by for a meal. there was a meal when we were short on rice coz that time i didnt ask and wasnt informed aunt was coming over. they didnt blame it on me which is cool but they should realize y i do ask that OBVIOUS question.

moving on. so i did return to work after the holidays, same cycles but less work loads since no rush projects. im too lazy to get up early enough. I'm quite short on sleep during the weekdays since i still play games when i get back home and momentum goes till my sleeping hours are trimmed short. that means im also sleep deprived.

Last week, i wanted to file another leave for own personal time, to play games(but didnt coz whos gonna fund my hobby). Hardly so, I even find games boring today. Back then i can go with no sleep for a day just for the games and run on adrenaline. but now I just feel blank. even with games that keep me up whole day is poof boring.

I did think of other options like why not go on road trip with friends? STRICT PARENTS. it's tiring to answer the questions that I'd rather just stay at home and have them ordering me around like they can't do it themselves. It even came to a point i find moma voice irritating today.

Today just feels like a straight line. wasn't even that joyous when i got something neat from the game.