Concerned...
So, Ive noticed something about how I think when Im around others. Well all be chatting and having fun, but I tend to think theyre nor paying attention to me.
Now, I spend most of my out of school life online, talking with friends and such and it only seems to be worse here. Im always wanting more attention, slyly making myself the main event (even though most times that doesnt work.). Sometimes Im lead to think my friends are undeserving of all the attention they get and that I should get it instead. Sometimes I grow to hate certain people and categorise them for all the attention they get.
I know this is bad, and I try hard not to think that way, but so far all its done is made me realise that this is how I think. I want to change this nonsensical jealousy because its not going to get me anywhere.
Does anyone else think this way?
Hi everyone!
So, Ive noticed something about how I think when Im around others. Well all be chatting and having fun, but I tend to think theyre nor paying attention to me.
Now, I spend most of my out of school life online, talking with friends and such and it only seems to be worse here. Im always wanting more attention, slyly making myself the main event (even though most times that doesnt work.). Sometimes Im lead to think my friends are undeserving of all the attention they get and that I should get it instead. Sometimes I grow to hate certain people and categorise them for all the attention they get.
I know this is bad, and I try hard not to think that way, but so far all its done is made me realise that this is how I think. I want to change this nonsensical jealousy because its not going to get me anywhere.
Does anyone else think this way?
Thank for your help!
@levithanh0209
First off, I wouldn't consider online communication real communication, so whatever circle you feel left out of as far as feeling a sense of community goes. I wouldn't put too much stock in it. As far as being the 5th wheel, this is probably one of those situations where those who aren't paying attention to you can go either way when it comes to your presence. Based on your intelligence, self-awareness and great writing skills, you obviously have more to contribute thsn you're given credit for. If none of these people will notice that you were missing you probably don't need them, so don't put too much stock in the attention that certain others aren't giving you, since they're the ones not acknowledging you. I'd try finding someone who does appreciate what you have to offer, instead of letting it build up inside while being around the wrong people. Staying in this situation only makes matters worse. If they don't include you like they include everybody else, then it probably wasn't meant to be. So you're probably going to have start at square one, which compared to where you are now is better than square negative one. Just my two cents.
