Found out the truth of my battle with ocd

It’s self diagnosed currently but I plan on getting professional help and therapy and a professional diagnoses but the other day I finally understood that my whole life has been a battle with ocd. Intrusive thoughts urges , my time when I tried to be edgy I was experimenting with intrusive thoughts. This was like 16 to 19 give or take I didn’t realize those thoughts weren’t mine. Spiritually I’ve been given a second chance but human wise it was troubling. I have all the ocds. Pocd, religious, violent all that. Some of which lead me to vent to google searches thoughts or inappropriate or  illegal things I didn’t really want to see anything but it’s how I handled the thoughts at those ages. I wanted to check verify that I’m not those thoughts. But a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I’ll share more once I’ve seen a therapist and professional.