Has anyone else experienced something like this
A couple of months ago
I lost myself
I was outside my own body
Everything was numb
I was out of it
I was just sitting there
Could not speak
Could not move
Could not do anything
I felt like I lost control
It didnt feel real
It was kind of like I was half awake
And this was just a dream
When I had to speak responses were short
But it just didnt feel right
I had to get out of the room to the bathroom
Even though walking felt weird
I had to be somewhere by myself
I was just sitting there in the stall
Still not feeling not right
I kept slow breathing with my eyes shut but nothing worked
Then I saw my friend walk in
As soon as she was in the stall
I walked out and was thinking about going to another bathroom but instead I just ended up walking back to class while nothing changed
@Twentyonepepes
Sounds like dissociation. It might happen due to massive anxiety/panic attacks or due to trauma. Is like you're starring at the world through a camera instead of your own eyes right?
@Booklover95 yes! Like a camera. This would happen for me again once in a while but not as severely while walking in the halls or when Im stressed in front of friends. This has also happened I think a couple of times at work. Even though at work Im forced to be talking to people it felt forced and sounded weird. Also once I remember I thought I accidentally put in that a guy wanted $10 back from his order since Im a cashier so I just didnt take it out. But then the guy asked for the 10 and I was like oh yeah sorry about that have a nice day. Then throughout the night I was working I realized I didnt remember things I was doing a lot that night. 😅
@Twentyonepepes
yeah then it seems to be what I just said :/
I have it myself but sadly I don't know how to fix it for good. But it does help to reach for a professional. Do you have the possibility to have one for free?Maybe through your family doctor or something.
@Booklover95 I havent been through trauma really I would think but I have probably developed anxiety or depression and I have autism but Im not sure if its related. Im also not sure if thats a possibility I havent looked into it but I have talked to my school councilor about my social issues having to do with autism and being nervous about situations but thats it.
@Twentyonepepes
I can't speak about autism because I'm ignorant on that subject, but anxiety and depression can make you experience that.
But you're already seeing help which is amazing :) Keep going! If you work hard I'm sure you'll find a way to cope. And meanwhile if I find a good answer to this I'll for sure update you.
@Twentyonepepes how often do you feel like your viewing life through this 'camera'?
@Sendingx It happened a bunch of times in December like maybe weekly. I went through a lot that month dealing with a bunch of things happening at once. Since then its just happened kinda minorly a few times most recently being a couple of weeks ago when I was too anxious to be in class so I was walking in the hallway of school and realized it felt like the camera thing all over again where my vision was acting like a video recording and I didnt feel like I was in control of my walking even though I obviously was. Im wondering if this is going to keep happening to me though because I do zone out a lot too so im not sure how associated that is.
I'm sorry, that wasn't me.