Murder
Well where do i start. Ive been afraid of speaking about this but i have to now. 8 years ago i married the love of my life. Fast foward 2 years and on May second i fall asleep. I have this dream the most intense dream ever. Ill spare all the details but in the end i strangle my wife. Now during this dream i cant wake up. Im stuck in this reality. It all feels so real. My thoughts are my own i can tell myself i know im asleep. But the breaths i take are mine. The sweat on my forehead my own. I feel i can control what happens but i dont i loath it. I can feel my nerves and adrenaline kick in i watch every time as she passes away and i do nothing to stop it. Now this pmauged us for years as i grew distant afraid that i would actually do these things. For years ive stopped myself numerous times. I even got her to allow "rough play" during intimacy and i had to stop that quickly. Hoping it would help it never has. Now a few weeks ago i caught her sleepong with one of her co workers. I know ive created this distance but i thought i did it for her. I feel so betrayed. She says its my fault that i gave up on her!!!! That i betrayed her when i startrd to becpme distant. Ive akways had anger issues and even did anger management. I am at a loss of what to do.
@Keansaer
OMG what a horrible thing to deal with 
I have to say, I was once in a relationship where I got similar thoughts (no dreams), and I got so scared that I ended up waking up my sleeping partner while I had that again and telling them about it - and somehow that helped, I never got those thoughts again. Have you told your wife? But your case seems much more serious tbh, this seems like something that not only stresses and scares you, it's destroying your relationship and might even end in a terrible disaster. I honestly think you need to take this to a good professional before you do any more harm to yourself and your wife.
So its been a few days and i see a t on Tuesday. I've been talking withva listener and honestly that helps with the anger. But at the same time i find myself waking every night living it all over again. I watch her sleep and wonder if she could ever understand if i coukd just show her. Somebhow let her feel how i feel.