Proud because I'm still here...
I'm proud of myself for making it through each and every day. I self harmed when I was younger and finally after 3 years managed to stop, and for a few years I barely even thought about cutting myself again. Unfortunately, now, I seem to think about cutting myself on a daily basis and the urge to actually start again is so overwhelming it's unbelievable. I haven't though and for that I'm proud, I seem to be going through some of my darkest, weakest times yet and still not fall back into it despite everything even though I'm petrified beyond belief that just that is going to happen.
hello bittersweetplum
wow congratulations on being able to abstain for so long. the fact that you realised it was bad for you and left it is amazing. everyone has fears of relapsing but if you've gone on this long, hopefully you can keep on keeping on.
i'm like the opposite of you, i've never self harmed before. but lately i've been feeling bummed out. everyone gets sad every once in a while right. but for me, its becoming more frequent to the point where im thinking about it.
but i dont because a) i don't know how to do it safely B) imafraid people will find out
hopefully you will keep on being clean... and i won't start.
here's to the both of us and everyone else out there who may be struggling. all the best.
Thanks, it is unbelievably difficult not to relapse some days, my head goes into the worst of places sometimes so for me to not fall back into it is nothing short of a miracle. Self harm is not something I would ever recommend, it's so addictive and such a vicious cycle to break. I wish I had never started it to begin with, I feel like it's going to haunt me for the rest of life and I would never wish that onto anyone, not even my worst enemy.
I'm sorry to hear your having a tough time of it lately, life is so difficult sometimes. Yet here we are, getting through each and every day. All the best to you, hope life starts looking up for you.
I'm proud of you too. I have a friend that does that. I'm trying really hard to help her. Sometimes I need help too because I don't know how to make things go better.
Stay strong! <3
Thank you for making this post, because I am having that issue too, and now I know that I'm not alone (: I suggest making a crisis box if you haven't already. Another tip: find a lotion you really love, and rub it on the places you wish to hurt.