Alexlove(L): Proud of myself because...(long list) PS: Maybe TW.

So, I am proud of myself because:

- I bought a dog and it makes me happy.
- I still try no matter that I'm in my fifth depressive episode in life and I'm still a teen, I'm still searching for right medication.
- I was patient and I didn't k*ll myself until my psychiatrist had time to talk to me(he was busy).
- I painted, and painted, and painted and created and I'm planning to sell my paintings.
- I did some things I've always wanted to do.
- I told my parents that I smoke and they didn't get mad because I'm expert in telling people shocking stuff(lol)
- I succeeded(at least I think like that) like a listener here and I'm proud that people tell me I'm good
- I got a bit off my chest all that guilt I feel. Maybe I still feel it, but it's easier than it was.
- I'm trying to read a book and find some hobbie.
- I created a forum and I'm not giving up on it, and I'm not even planning to give up on it ever. I try to promote it everywhere I can, it's about art, but it's in my language(Croatian).
- I waited. I waited, waited, waited.
- I met new people.
- I told everyone on every social network that I'm mentally ill and that I will be mentally ill forever. It's a brave thing. And for that, I am really, really proud.
- I've survived suicidal crisis.
- I tried to get help when my psychiatrist was busy, with psychologist and with online suicide hotline in my country.
- I tried with CBT([C]ognitive [B]ehavioral [T]herapy).
- I downloaded some CBT and DBT([D]ialetical[B]ehavioral [T]herapy) documents and workbooks and I'm planning to try to work with it.
- I.... just... survived. And that's the most important thing.


PS: This will be my place where will I write why am I of myself like this, in lists :)

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