Death of my grandma's puppy .

few weeks back my grandma bought a puppy ..he was so small and weak looking but cute..then after that for my mom's birthday we decided to gift her a pug..we did..we were happy with them ..then 31st August night ..me and my mom had a fight ..and it turned into the talk of giving the pug a new home as she and I weren't capable of keeping her..that night it almost looked like the pug was about to die..that night was 2 days afterr her first vaccination. .but thank god she didn't die..and from there we both knew we couldn't keep her..then we kept her in my grandma's house as it was way cooler there and the puppy that grandma adopted might have a friend..it was good...they seemed normal..healthy but the puppy that grandma adopted (called RAJA) seemed weak..few days back he fell sick..and today he died ..that too on my grandma's birthday...

His name was Raja ..he was so small and cute ..I took care of them [Raja and the pug -loila ] both whenever I could get time..I played with them ...I slept close to them during the evening ..it was like they r my baby

Raja always didn't looked that weak...yeah he looked a little bit weak but that time he wasn't even of 45day..grandma bought him when he was around 38 days old from someone that she knew ..few days later..she bathed him ..we always told her not to bath him ..but she didn't listen..*** she bathed him twice or thrice till now..I even told her not to give them rice to eat but *** they still gave him rice..few days back they kept him on the terrace ..unattended ..and maybe there he ate something that he shouldn't have ..and that got stuck ..due to which he was sick..he had diarrhea and still my grandma bathed him inorder to clean him..

Today when I went to her house ..he looked so weak..I thought he wouldn't die...he would be ok the next day ..but no..he died ..when we took him to the hospital...I wasn't there in the hospital..I was in my home...studying for my exam..

I regret not pushing them to take him to a vet when he first fell sick...he isn't the only one ..who's life I took ...before him I had 3 -4 pets .all in different year ...

First one I saw was Raja ..when I was 4 to 7 year old..he was adopted by my grandmother.. he died due to old age ..

Next one were Jack and Juidie ..they were siblings...due to some conditions in our home we sadly had to give them to someone else ...now only juidie is Alive..Jack died dur to medical condition ...After that ...cotton came..she was juidie's daughter ..funny thing ..everyone thought she was a male..but I knew she was a female but no one believed me ..and that is why I kept her name Cotton..a gender neutral name according to me ...but due to my exam we had to give her to my grandparents who lived somewhere else then..like a cool place...years later I got to know ..she also died ..and now ..it's loila whom ..I have to give away..I and my mom don't think we r capable to keeping her..I kept pursuing her not to give her away..but after Raja's death ..I think it's best she goes to a new loving home..atleast she will live more than 10 years rather than not even completing one year...

So..***..they will be the last pet I own..until I know and others know ..that I can take their responsibility..or maybe it might never come...who knows?.

Or maybe it's a sign to never keep a pet ..