I’m drowning in grief

My mom died seven months ago out of the blue. And I feel so broken I can barely breathe.

One day she was gone. And I’ll never talk to her again, I’ll never see her again, I will never hear her laugh again, I’ll never get angry at her again.

And after I lost her and I needed to feel safe, I needed to rely on my person and feel supported he left me. He broke up with me over the phone because “we don’t have the same needs”.

And I am all alone and I can’t anymore. It’s too much pain and I can’t handle it. How can you love someone for three years and they hurt you so much?

I miss both of them so much. I miss him. I didn’t get enough time with him. I miss them. And I am all alone when everyone’s lives move on.