I’m new here 🙊

Hi everyone, I’m very new to this. This app was actually a suggestion to me from my partner. I lost my grandfather last year and have been really struggling with the passing, it’s coming up to his first anniversary and I think it is hitting me now more than ever. It’s funny how grief can catch up with you, one minute your completely fine and the next you’re crying uncontrollably. 

I have recently started counselling and am working through the motions, but lately I have just no words to describe how I am actually feeling. At first I was sad, really struggling but I feel at the minute I am just in limbo.. not particularly sad, but not happy or good either, it’s like an awkward inbetween. I’m not sure how to actually make sense of it, has anyone else felt like this? How did you work through it? Any advice would be appreciated 🫶🏼