Missing my dad

Today marks 6 months since they kidnapped my dad

I had high hopes that he'll be released today, if I don't hear any information about him today I don't know how I'll keep on having faith. I miss him so much, everything is going wrong in my life right now just because he's not here. I just pretend like I'm okay but deep down I long for him so much.

I've become cold these past months
Like recently, my aunt left a soup on the firem I stood there till it got burnt and inedible, like I did it willingly because I kind of don't like her
I try to stay in the room as much as possible, keep to myself, and not bother anyone.