@HUNT4ASPARKLE2DAY
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Well I guess it all started when I was a kid. Parents divorced. Lived with my mom dad lived everywhere. He was a truck driver didn’t see him much. Mom was who knows. My older sister by 2 years basically raised us 3 girls. When I was 13 mom remarried step dad didn’t want us 2 older girls so my sister went to live with my dad and my mom gave me up to the state where I was moved from home to home till I was 17 when I decided I’d be better off on my own.
I met my husband at 18 and married and started our family. We were married 23 years 3 children. It was the fairytale story. Honestly. Then tragedy struck he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and lost his battle in 2020. Kids graduating school and moving out. It was just me scared and having never been alone. I panicked and one year later remarried. A marriage that will haunt me the rest of my life. I was lost and stuck and wanted out and couldn’t figure out how to get out without leaving behind everything I had worked for to have my entire life. Then one morning in 2025 he snapped and pulled a gun on me. I grabbed my grandbaby and called 911. For the first time I felt free. I could breathe. I thought my nightmare was over. Until he sent someone released from jail looking for me. 8 months later he was released from jail. I’m terrified. Lost and have no idea what to do next. I feel like I am having to give up my life so he can have his. Not fair in my mind.
October 25 my 23 yo daughter wasn’t feeling well went to doctor. And my darkest nightmares couldn’t prepare me for what comes next. She was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. DSRCT THE RAREST CANCER AND UNTREATABLE.
I have no idea as to how to process or react to any of this. I have redial highs and lows. PTSD anything can trigger me. I feel trapped. Lost and completely alone. I can’t wrap my head around how so much tragedy and trauma and be dumped onto one person and expected to keep going.
I don’t wish any of this on my worse enemy.
@HUNT4ASPARKLE2DAY
My heart goes out to you.
What you have described is heart breaking.
One person shouldn't have to suffer through all of this.
I'm so sorry you lost your beautiful husband and to have to prepare to lose your daughter .
No parent should have to do that.
There are no words to convey how much my heart breaks for you 💚
I'm not going to patronise you, honestly, one day at a time is all you can do, and be there with your daughter, and in those unbearable moments and where you just want to scream at the unfairness of the world, and you want to cry and shout, come here, all I can offer you, is not to be alone 💚
Thank you.
@HUNT4ASPARKLE2DAY
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