My life lately

My dad has always been cheating on my mom and he made my moms life a living h*ll my mum felt suicidal when all she did was sacrifice everything for him and her kids and my mom always wanted to go to the uk but my dad took his wh*re abroad 3 times even when my mom had cancer he knew but kept cheating my mom cried every evening wanting to leave this house but cancer broke her bones so she had to stay for treatment and immediately my mom died his wh*re threw a party celebrating my moms death w her friends and she has 2 kids he is taking care. Of which are hers after my mom died he couldn’t even respect her 2 weeks after he will leave us at home and go to his wh*res place and he even secretly married her my mom doesn’t deserve this she was the sweetest and most selfless person i know and im so angry and sad rn i wanna end my self genuinely i can’t wait to grow up i hate my life so much