The shock has worn off and I miss my dad
My dad passed from cancer on March 2, and I think the shock has officially worn off. It’s unbearable to think that I’ll never hug him again, hear him say he’s proud of me, hear his laugh, go on lunch dates, he’ll never see me graduate from college, move into my first home, start my career, or have kids. I’ll have to miss him for longer than I knew him. I’d do anything to have him back.
@sarabethhxoxo , hi , I am sorry for your loss. It's so clear how much you feel. I don't know how to argue here , but i always believe that when people love so deeply , as you both did eachother , they get to look upon you from above, always. I know it's not enough. But you said he would miss out on so much, but maybe he wouldn't. Maybe he will always be up there laughing and shaking his head , as you find your way , stumbling , out of this grief and every other obstacles in life. And he would always be super damn proud of you for everything you do , good bad and all stupid stuff. Idk what you feel about yourself right now , but i think you are a super brave women , who loves fully and deeply. Even if you don't hear it out right , every person who gets share that side of your personality, will always and always be proud and obsessed with you forever,
Thank you 🫂 That means so, so much to me. I like to text his phone still and write him letters, which probably sounds weird, but it helps me stay connected to him. I’d like to think he’s watching over me, basking in the moments of joy, holding me close during the moments of darkness, and adding one of his famous sarcastic comments to every conversation.
@sarabethhxoxo That must feel a little peaceful yeah ? He would like that too. And it's not wierd btw. I like to believe there is always a part us , our dear ones have with them , so will we have there's.
@sarabethhxoxo
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My heart goes out to you 🩷
Sending you my love and condolences 💙
Thank you 💕💐