To my beautiful mum

I miss you more and more everyday, I wish I could have done more to help you. I feel so much guilt for not doing more, maybe if I stayed awake later and stayed by your side like you would have done with me you would still be here today. Everyday I am reminded that you are no longer here. Seeing your ashes sitting in the Living-room (now Im typing that it seems a bit ironic), watching my comfort show and seeing people with their mothers, every holiday/event, Every time i see a silly video on social media when I used to show you all of them, whenever I hear a p!nk song or your funeral songs etc. I just want my amazing mum bacm, I never showed how much you meant to me, I wish I could crawl back into your arms while you stroked my hair.