I can't do this alone anymore..

Hi everyone

All this is new to me but I don't think I can handle my anxiety alone anymore. I am still trying to cope with 2 failed IVFS and can't seem to be able to bear my own child. I don't trust my soul anymore or myself to become something in life. I can't even see the sun when it's out and I'm fully aware that I should be counting my blessings....