A Fox's Venting Burrow

I'm the actual definition of pathetic loser

take a hint...he's not interested and you're annoying -_-

Why do I have such insanely low motivation....this is killing me...nothing is enjoyable...I can't do anything and I don't have any desire to do anything...I feel so pathetic and like such a waste of space...time just passes and I haven't done anything. I don't know how to get out of this

Woww I'm such an idiot I absolutely misunderstood something and just sounded like an idiot and cut the conversation off...ugh...why am I like this...and of course I'm too nervous to say "sorry I think I didn't understand correctly" because I'm over thinking like what if I DIDN'T misunderstand :/ then I would sound even worse

I can't believe how much of an idiot I am...I'm really messing this up...

How do I tell someone that I don't want to be with them and have them believe me, when we have to live together and I'm basically doing everything for them like acting like their maid or their mom or something, when they're always calling me "theirs" etc like they have no reason to let me go...how do I tell that person that I think we're really nor a good fit, I'm tired of being treated so poorly, and honestly there is this other guy who is really nice to me and we get along and who wants to go on a date with me and I kind of want to give it a chance?? How do you say that without sounding awful and like a cheater or have them believe you at all...I'm just so tired...I've been thinking a lot about moving and living on my own and how to split up our shared stuff and...it makes me feel good to think about but also scared...I'm scared to make the wrong choice but also what would I even be losing, someone who treats me poorly and makes me feel bad all the time and uses me??? Sure, I'll lose someone I've known for a long time and someone who gets along with my family really well, like I don't think anyone would be able to do, but...is that worth it...am I allowed to want something for myself for once in my life...why does that make me feel so guilty...

I'm so conflicted!! I like seeing him so much and he's so nice and he's so cute and he called me cute ughh like every time I see him I think "there's no way someone like you actually likes me, this must be a joke, right?"

And then I have to come home to someone I have no feelings for who won't let me leave and who acts like everything is fine when it's not...

I feel so guilty and awful...I feel like such a bad person, why can't I be honest. Why doesn't he believe me when I say we're done...what are you supposed to do when someone is begging you to stay but you really don't want to...

Ugh the non-human ""DID"" teenagers still piss me off..."I'm a demon, angel, vampire, and a fairy"...like...you DO realize you're literally only a human right...a single human being...please...at least tell me you know that much. The fact that you put "/MPD", a term NOT used anymore, really lets me know you're doing this as a "fad" or to be "unique" or because you've been brainwashed by some stupid online community.

Also, polyamory at 15? Really....you're a literal child, you shouldn't be having any relationships let alone several. What a disaster. I wish these kinds of people didn't exist, making a mockery of actual struggles and actual identities. Absolutely disgusting. I feel so bad for their parents, to have such a gullible and idiotic child.

I'm so trapped....I feel like just giving up...it's easier just to stay with someone I don't like and who treats me horribly than it is to go through all this awful stuff trying to break up. Why can't be just have acted like a normal person and respected me when I say I don't want to be together anymore, rather than become forceful and demanding and denying my emotions. You can't reply "no you're my fucking girlfriend and you're not allowed to leave me" when someone says they don't want to be with you anymore. You can't threaten to rape me or kill me or kill yourself if I leave, not even "jokingly". That's just...not fair....why would I want to stay with you after all of this...because I'm weak and broken down, that's why.

I feel awful and sad all day and like I'm so pointless, and then he texts me "you really are sweet" and maybe...my life does have value...I don't know...that sounds like I'm hinging my worth on someone else's opinion of me but...it's just nice to hear someone thinks positively of me when I feel so negatively

Also I hate that I can't write about my actual feelings on here since the censor doesn't like certain terms :/ at least I was smart this time and copied before trying to post so I didn't lose it all

There's a certain person on here just going around spreading negativity regarding race etc with all the stuff going on in the world like...yeah, this is really the time to be mad at support -_- stop acting like you speak for all black people. "I use Black with a capital B because White would be with a capital W" and then literally the next sentence says white without a capital 😂 newsflash, many many black people do not use capital b, it's not inherently racist. I get the message but it's misguided. And then one post they say whiteness is a pathology?? Like...that is not the way to be thinking, we're not trying to reverse the situation so that white people are seen as less than human the way black people have been seen, that is NOT the goal. Equality and equity and unitedness is the goal. Wow I just...I just wish they didn't think they speak for everyone, as if their view was the be all end all "correct" one. Then "attack" other people by saying "you must be white" as if 1) white people can't have valid views and 2) anyone who doesn't have the same view must not be black or poc. The push for division is just sickening and I hate being forced to see it around here, a site that's supposed to be positive. Go somewhere else with this attitude, go on twitter or something where it's not supposed to have a tone of support

I wish this drew guy would shut the FUCK up, he's so goddamn annoying and idiotic wowww I can't believe someone so stupid actually exists 😂😂 literally go away, no one wants you and your boring opinions