A Fox's Venting Burrow
I wanted to make this space for me to be able to vent or rant about stuff, because I usually feel better after getting stuff out rather than have it kept inside my head on repeat. Some might be rude stuff because I'm human and things can bother me, I don't want to be mean to anyone directly but I feel it's better to let it out in a safe space than keep it eating me up inside.
I don't mind replies
I don't know why small stuff bothers me so much. Why do I get so worked up inside about stuff that doesn't even affect my life. I seriously dislike otherkin stuff. It's just so...childish and unintelligent and wanting to be 'special' or 'unique' and half the time it makes no sense and is just gullible teens/young adults being convinced they're somehow not human or some part of them isn't human, because some other group of likewise gullible people are promoting it. I think it mostly bothers me when it comes to xenogender stuff, really just an absolute insult to the trans community. Like get off the internet if you're going to be that easily influenced to the point where now you're offended if someone doesn't affirm your brainwashed/hive mind identity -_- why does this annoy me so much
YOU CAN'T DIRECT QUOTE SOMETHING IN AN ESSAY AND CHANGE THE WORDING AS YOU LIKE!!! IT'S NOT A QUOTE ANYMORE AT THAT POINT! Ahhhhh group essays are the worst why do they even exist??? How are people at the post grad level so bad at writing academic papers! I want to scream! This is 20% of my mark, I wish I had just written the whole thing myself instead of trying to edit this garbage
I'm so stupid why would I think he'd be interested in me I'm probably so annoying and boring and he's realized that I'm just a loser ughh stop texting him he doesn't care you're just bothering him
@FoxPrince tried to write in my own thread and it didn't post since it had "concerning" content...like we can't talk about suicide?? Annoying. Can't even vent properly.
I just feel like trash
@FoxPrince I agree, the automatic censor is annoying, but it's also stupid and you can easily fool it by misspelling words 
You should always be able to vent here and describe your feelings, although too much graphic detail might make a human moderator edit what you've written.
By the way, if you'd ever like to chat about things, feel free to click on my profile picture and message me.
Charlie
@RarelyCharlie thanks Charlie, it definitely wasn't graphic, more just annoying since I had typed a lot and the concerning stuff was only one portion, and I forgot what I had written so it's lost to the void now :/ oh well
I wish he would have texted me today...I mean, idk....just would have been nice, if he was thinking about me. But I get why he wouldn't...I guess I hope it's more because it would be weird rather than he doesn't like me anymore :(
I feel so awful and pointless. I'm not good at anything, I'm not creative....I keep having a feeling of wanting to paint or draw but cannot get myself to physically do it, I have no good ideas and can't get myself to practice so I'll never be any better...
I'm also feeling bad about lying. I should have told the truth from the beginning but I was scared of what might happen, and when I did tell the semi-truth it really confirmed my fears, but now lying is just eating away at me. I wish I could tell the truth...I want to. I feel like I should. I just don't know how. I'm scared of the reaction. It was a stupid mistake to not just be truthful from the beginning and now I've made a bigger mess that I don't know how to get out of
@FoxPrince Aww I know that feeling. Like you've got so many ideas but they just won't manifest, you just don't feel you have the skill or motivation to make them a reality.
Texting someone and caring so much and not feeling like your affections are reciprocated is sooooo hard. You just find yourself overthinking and second-guessing and eventually your self confidence is in the dirt.
And the lying part? That's my life right there. I always think something bad will happen if I tell the truth, so I fib. Then the hole just digs deeper and deeper and you wish you'd have just faced the consequences in the beginning rather than making it oh so much worse. Its a terrible feeling and I'm so sorry you're having to deal with that. My heart goes out to you.
And I just want you to know that you're not an idiot or a loser, and you're not alone ♥️
@HeyItsNancy thanks for sharing :) it's nice to know other people have to battle with similar things...well, obviously not nice that others have to to through it too but nice that it's not something 'wrong' with me
I'm such an idiot why do I cry all the time stop being so sensitive I'm such a loser
Is it just me or are there seemingly WAY too many teens saying they're a "system"...and even ones saying it's not DID...which is a rare and somewhat controversial diagnosis to begin with...what's up with this? Are they being influenced on the internet into creating this idea in themselves? Especially with some fantasy stuff...like...I feel like all these teens are doing more harm than they think, the mind is a powerful thing and I feel like there must be some force that is influencing them (such as tumblr) into believing they have this or encouraging them to create alters...as if, creating the problem on purpose?? It seems incredibly unlikely to me. Very suspicious and kind of annoying to be honest!! Majority of cases probably aren't DID/systems but just gullible/malleable teens with imaginations -___-
I hate when he's nice...when he's sad that he's losing me...because it makes me forget the reasons why he's losing me. Makes me think "oh maybe he really is changing this time"...this is how I got stuck in this situation in the first place. I have to remember all the bad things, all the reasons I want to leave him in the first place. I can't be manipulated into staying...which is so hard when he seems so sincere....I'm sure he is sincere, but he's also sincere when he's hurtful. That's real and meant too
I want to text him and say I miss him
I want to see him
But I'm scared he doesn't feel the same
@FoxPrince. That's such a tough feeling to deal with, and I'm really sorry to hear you're going through this. If you ever need anyone to talk to about it, feel free to message me, okay? I'm here for you <3
I like him too much my heart hurts!! I wish I was able to tell the truth and hang out whenever I wanted to instead of having to hide a friendship??? Today is such nice weather and it would have been so nice to go on a walk but I can't because then I'd have to tell my boyfriend that I'm talking to someone he doesn't like, which I shouldn't have lied about in the first place. But I was/am scared because he got so angry the last time I was truthful, I was scared of how he would react...but I don't think it's right for him to tell me who I can and can't hang out with....it's not fair :(
I'm thinking of telling the truth tonight. I'm just...so worried...but it has to happen eventually. And it's eating away at me
@FoxPrince
Oh gosh, that sounds like a really tough decision to make...
Your boyfriend doesn't allow you to hang out with other people? :(
@HeyItsNancy very tough...it's not that he doesn't let me hang out with other people (although he usually does make me feel bad for it), it's just this one person in particular. It's a bit complicated...I guess to sum up, the guy said he likes me, and at one point wanted to stop talking which made me sad, so my bf doesn't want me to talk to him for those reasons...
@FoxPrince
Ohhh. So the guy likes you and you don't feel the same about him? I guess it makes sense that your boyfriend wouldn't want you around someone who he feels is an 'opponent' (or however it is guys think about it), but he should respect your friendship decisions and trust you to stay faithful if he does love you, right? It isn't fair for him to try to control those aspects of your life like that.
@HeyItsNancy yeah exactly...I do get his reasoning for being upset but I think he goes overboard. He knows I wouldn't cheat. But I guess that's what makes me more nervous, now that I've kept something innocent a secret, it'll sound suspicious when I tell the truth. Why hide a friendship? I did it because the last 2 times I was honest about talking to the guy, my bf got violent. And I even told him the 2nd time that's exactly why I hesitated to say anything, but he thought it wasn't a good excuse and that his reaction was reasonable so....I'm bracing for the same this time :( It ended up being not good timing last night so I didn't say it yet....I really want to get this off my chest, deal with the consequences, and move on
@FoxPrince
Not to be bothersome or offensive in any way, but what is it that keeps you from leaving your boyfriend? Is he really just a good person besides this particular issue? I know sometimes it's like that, so that's why I ask.
@HeyItsNancy to be honest it's him that keeps me from leaving...I tried to breakup with him a while ago but he won't let me. It's tough since we live together and neither of us have any means to find a new place (and no family/friends around to stay with). He's not 100% awful but I don't want to be with him anymore, I don't think we're a good match. He says since he hasn't cheated on me then we're not allowed to breakup, and "jokes" that he owns me
@FoxPrince
Oh my. There just has to be some way you can get out of it, you shouldn't have to keep living like that. And he really won't listen to reason, or recognise that you're not happy in the relationship?
@HeyItsNancy it feels like there isn't much I can do right now :( we've talked a looong time about our relationship, he definitely knows I'm not happy, the reasons for it, he even has his own reasons for not wanting to be with me, but he also has reasons to stay with me (mostly, because I'm useful to him and it would be a hassle to find someone else). He doesn't seem to really care about my side...
He keeps flipping between "I'm telling people I'm single" and "you're my girlfriend and you can't leave", I can't tell what's going on! And he plays everything off as a joke so I have no idea what he really feels, it seems like it's always changing
@FoxPrince
Ugh, that sounds so unfair to you! :(
@FoxPrince
