A Fox's Venting Burrow

Wow...ANOTHER friend got engaged...

I'm debating.... should I ask him if we should stop talking? It's almost been a year since he said he liked me and nothing has really changed... even though I would hate it, I also hate feeling like I'm wasting his time...that's not my intention but I don't think it's fair to him :(

Now another friend is having a baby?? Why does everything seem so easy to everyone else... I'm the only one struggling... I'm the only one not going anywhere in life...

I literally have no reason to live

Every once in a while I have a random burst of actual motivation, where I feel like what I actually want to be doing is having an online shop for stickers and pins and washi tape, all that kind of stuff. Like, I'm really interested in that. But then I feel like no one will like my art, and I'm not good at social engagement which is needed for social media, and I feel like it's not reliable for an actual job... and then I lose my motivation again :(

How is it possible to feel so conflicted....

Fall asleep thinking of someone and wake up still thinking about them...hmmm...

I wish things were so much easier :( what's even the point...

Wow. Wow wow wow omg I feel so good??? My stomach keeps sinking like when I watch a cute kiss scene or something omggg

I'm just feeling so down today :( it's been 1 year now since I was hit for the first time (and luckily still the only time)

I just feel so low, unmotivated, pointless....I keep procrastinating and making my situation worse but I still just stay and don't make any changes.... I'm such an idiot

Life is literally pointless