A Fox's Venting Burrow
I wanted to make this space for me to be able to vent or rant about stuff, because I usually feel better after getting stuff out rather than have it kept inside my head on repeat. Some might be rude stuff because I'm human and things can bother me, I don't want to be mean to anyone directly but I feel it's better to let it out in a safe space than keep it eating me up inside.
I don't mind replies
Well.....I told him. He was surprisingly calm, but I'm thinking it might come out later so...just waiting now...
@FoxPrince
That was very brave of you to go ahead with it, and I'm glad he's been reasonable about it so far. I hope he'll be understanding!
@FoxPrince
That was very brave of you to go ahead with it, and I'm glad he's been reasonable about it so far. I hope he'll be understanding!
@FoxPrince
Oh wow, that took courage girl! Praying that he will be alright with it, and that you and he will be able to work things out soon. ❤️
@HeyItsNancy @ArtemisAlvarez thank you both...it was very scary but could have gone much worse. He's still upset today and I'm just feeling sad about it, I feel like I ruin everything....that I'm awful for having lied...
@FoxPrince
Awe, no it's not your fault! You shouldn't have to hide your friendship from him in the first place, it's not right. Please don't blame yourself ♥️
I wish listeners would look at my profile before asking if it's my first time here....no...I've been here since 2015.
I hadn't connected with listeners in a while but was feeling really down yesterday so gave it a shot, I feel so disappointed. I connected to 7 listeners, and not one really made me feel heard or cared about. One absolutely made me feel worse, it was the first time I ever felt the need to give a negative review. Here's a tip: you cannot read 1 sentence and then say you know exactly what I'm going through and then just spew nonstop empty positivity & stories about your life and basically just telling me to "just feel better, that'll make you feel better"....then when I'm trying to say it isn't helpful just giving up on me saying you can't help me then. You didn't even try?? Most just stopped replying pretty soon into the connection, and others just sounded like robots or just giving the same generic responses as if they weren't actually caring or interested, they just felt they had to. Like "I understand"...do you? How could you possibly understand from the very little info I've said so far. Or "tell me more"...about something that was pretty clearly all I could say about the subject. I don't know....I wish there was a way to be in the queue but only request verified listeners. Or people who have been here a while. It's not helpful for someone like me who has been here a long time to have to listen to a new listener tell me about stuff available on the site or explaining their role....I already know. I can't believe in one chat about 3 messages in they say I should connect with a therapist...like...I'm here for the free listeners obviously why don't you give that a shot first and then if it seems really serious or beyond your scope then refer me. Not before you've even heard what's going on...
@FoxPrince
Hey there,
I'm really sorry to hear you've had such an unpleasant experience with listeners of late, it's true it can be quite difficult to find someone you really.. connect with.
About reaching out to verified listeners, I'd generally suggest looking through availabilities under browse listeners, but of course you've been around and would already know that. :)
I do hope that you can find help, and if you'd like to give another non-verified listener a go, then feel free to message me. Anytime. ♥️
@ArtemisAlvarez true, I would probably have better luck if I tried hand-picking listeners, but I usually like the queue because then I know for certain the person is (supposedly) available right now and available to talk (aka, isn't taking on too many chats). Just had bad luck yesterday...usually I get at least one who is pretty decent
@FoxPrince
Ah, yeah I understand that. Sometimes when the listener status shows as online it still won't allow members to request a chat? It's odd, not sure why that happens.
there's a certain member here that I just hate seeing in the forums...they are so annoying, so horrendously negative, so hateful to anyone who tries to help, mean for no good reason, just because they are a hateful person. I wish I could block people in the forums so I wouldn't have to see their posts or replies. Poisonous negativity. If the site isn't working for you, quit coming on here and trying to bring others down. I wish the person would realize they're honestly their own problem. Fix your attitude and you'd probably see a remarkable improvement in your life. But no, everyone else is the problem.
You absolutely did NOT mention needing to include references, "very clearly" bullshit. This is so fcking stupid. You dumb btch.! I'm so mad at everything, everyone is being really stupid and now I've sent an angry email back to my prof because I absolutely disagree with her and I'll probably regret it but right now I don't care!!! I'm so mad!!!!
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Wow I shouldn't have sent that email!!!!!! But I'm just so upset!! And I don't care about my future anyways
@FoxPrince
Oh gosh, I'm sorry you're having such trouble with school stuff. Professors can be so awful and rude at times! I know it must be really aggravating you, and it is true that it can help some to try not to worry about what's happening. I hope it'll work out for you, I really do.
@HeyItsNancy Yeah like...I never miss a single class, and she took off a huge portion of marks because I didn't cite references, when she never asked for them. I even remember when I was doing the assignment thinking "do I need any references for this?" but looked ALL over the instructions and all my notes from class and didn't see anything, so I didn't put any (it was all bascially testing my knowledge anyways...I didn't even use sources for it, only my notes). But then she takes off a bunch because she just assumed I would know she wanted them...and "apparently" she mentioned it in class, specifically she said she mentioned it in ONE class so...that just seems so stupid to me. To just offhand mention something ONCE that is apparently a large portion of marks. Something I very seriously do not remember her mentioning at all, and I'm always writing down literally anything a teacher says about assignments. So my mark is stuck at something I'm not happy with, over something so stupid. Even in her email to me she said she used to put it in the rubric but took it out (why exactly???) and made sure to mention it in class because people forget...then why take it out of the rubric????? Makes no sense!! Honestly I hope she tries to talk to me about it on Wednesday in class so I can tell her to NOT talk to me!!! Know what, I don't regret that email. I hope she feels bad because she should
My life is just so pointless. Why do I even bother being alive
Why am I even in this program...who am I kidding....I'll never be any good at it. What kind of idiot with social anxiety goes into a social work program...I can't even talk to people. I'm just wasting my money and my time. My whole life is a waste
@FoxPrince
I actually think that's pretty brave of you! By choosing that course you're pushing yourself to overcome the anxiety. I can't say I'd have the courage to go into that line of work with my anxiety..
It's probably not easy for you, I understand that completely, but I know you can do this! Look how far you've come already, and how hard you've worked to get here. You're doing great ;)
@HeyItsNancy it feels more like I'm just setting myself up for failure, I haven't improved at all, if anything I've only gotten worse, having to see how easily this comes to literally every other person in the class. I doubt I'd ever get a job after this, and if I did I probably wouldn't last very long. Sitting in class and writing papers is hardly the same as work in the field, my success here means nothing to how I would be in reality. And I'm not even doing that well in class anyways.
I tried to do something nice and get us pizza but apparently I can't even do that right....getting criticized over everything...why do I bother....
I'm worried about tomorrow, I don't want to have to see the teacher who made me upset
And my friend isn't even talking to me...I'm sure he's just busy with his own stuff but I have a bad habit of taking everything personally and over thinking everything
The teacher did want to talk to me and I ended up crying like an idiot. Some classmates really cheered me up though and made me laugh so much, but now I'm home I'm going back to the negative mood :( just feel a mix of sad and anxious...
@FoxPrince
Ugh yes, it's okay when you're with friends but alone isn't easy. Everything comes crashing back in :/
I just feel so pointless and stupid right now...
Nothing I'm doing matters
I only just disappoint people and am selfish
Why do I always end up regretting everything I do...
Know what I just figured out? Easter weekend is right before final exam week, so I can't even go visit my family or do anything :( who planned it like this?? AND it falls on my brother's birthday too so it would have been even nicer to go visit...awful
@FoxPrince
Oh noooooo, that's no good! Yeah who schedules these things anyway? How irritating :/
How do I get out of this relationship....how can I be so aware that he's obviously manipulating me and taking advantage of me and yet still fall for his "I'm sorry"s and feeling he's genuine and that he loves me...when he's done this cycle over and over and over again