A place for my thoughts (and yours) as I cycle through life
I think I will use this spot as a brain dump when needed....I'm having a hard time navigating the forums. I'm not sure where to put things, don't know if there is a way to be notified if someone comments back on my threads but I'm sure I'm missing somebfood stuff, and when it tells me I'm tagged get lost trying to find it....I find I do better navigating the site from my laptop on the web than I do from the android app on the phone so most of my thought dumps will be from the computer, when I actually have time to log in amd type.... I also hate trying to type on my phone....I have the fat finger issue and a lot of times my words are wrong or spell check puts some crazy crap in there that I don't catch and it comes out as nonsense....anyway...if anyone else reads this and wants to be part of my brain dumps, feel free...I'm always open to, but don't always listen to advice, comments and constructive criticism....sooooo to anyone reading, welcome to my world....
Friday 17 January 2025
Things are still as they were on Monday.....I have a lot of ideas and things I want to put into motion, but I'm struggling with which path to actually take, for fear of the unknown, of course.....Even small changes and small starts....I honestly think its because, even though I'm at a status quo minus, I'm comfortable with it.....and don't have the motivation, will, or drive to move forward....I took today and tomorrow off work....I feel I needed to....the bad part about it is, lately, there hasn't really been a bad time at work causing me to want to take time off....I just don't want to be there.....Hopefully that will change in the next week or two....there are things in the works at my place of employment....I won't go into specifics just yet.....don't want to get ahead of myself in case they don't pan out.....
@CyclingThroughLife
Hey Cycling,
if I understand it correctly, you are saying, you've lost a sense of direction and a lot of focus. I think the important part is, that you are ok with that.
(2 cents) + I don't know if this is true or not but I believe the times I've gotten to that stage and it has been quite often, I feel like it's a healing period. It's like part of my brain goes into hibernation and it's not like I'm giving up or quitting, just healing. It was OK to me.
I hope it's OK for you too. Try not to push yourself too hard but also know that you are not giving up. From what I've felt about you these past couple of years, you don't have any quit in your DNA!
Changing directions because of things beyond our control stop it's tough. But doable.
Hang in there and have a good day!
Feb 1 2025
Been a couple weeks since being here.....things are looking up as far as work is going....In
January, I had applied for a new position within my facility at
work....I didn't mention it because I wasn't sure how it would pan out
and didn't want to jinx myself or get my hopes up....I interviewed
earlier this week....I got the call yesterday that I got the
position....the position is M-F with normal daytime hours....its more of
an administrative/policy/procedure/compliance/making sure things are
straight for outside audits, etc type of position, with some other
duties tossed in....I will still be called on to fill in within the
facility doing what I used to do, if needed, and am still subject to
mandatory overtime when the wheel makes its way around to me, but I can
deal with that....the new job will be challenging but its a change from
what I have been doing for the last longest time....I'm hoping it is the
change I needed to help me mentally and emotionally with my burnout and
negative outlook on my employment situation...I'm looking forward to starting my new gig and falling into new
routines...especially the routine of having Saturday and Sunday weekends
as regular days off and working normal "daytime" hours.....both are
something I haven't had in over 20 years.....I start the job on Feb 9th....stay tuned for updates.....
That's great news...sounds like the change you need. Admin work can be boring & certainly has its quotient of 🐂💩, but you won't have to deal with the inmates, knuckledraggers, gangbangers & yard tricks anymore!
Thank you