Blessing & A Curse

Today 2 years ago I met you. These past few years have felt like a lifetime ever since we met. There hasn’t been a day since that I haven’t thought about you at least once. You’re presence and your existence is a blessing, you mean more than you could ever imagine to me. I love you, but I know our love for each other is not of the same realm. But even so I still remain here because you deserve a person like me in your life. But at times even though I’m blessed to have you and be in your life I feel as though our meeting was a curse. This may be self inflicted but my feelings and emotions are too strong. I overthink on a daily, I can’t imagine life without you and I can’t remember life before you (which is scary). I feel tormented because my love for you is unrequited. I try to mask it and just be the best person and friend I can be for you, but it still lingers. I feel like I’m not as important to you at times and it pains me. But I know deep down I’m just overthinking and you do care for me and appreciate my time and patience. You’re the light of my life but sometimes I wonder what my life would be if we hadn’t met. Would your life be different? Have I made much of a difference in your life? Or would it just be the same? In the same sense would my life be different? Would I not experience this torment or would I have gotten hung up on another person eventually? I try not to think about it.

I love you