Confession

I let my anxiety control my life more than I like to admit.I wanted to start a new thing where I "just say yes" to doing things. To something as easy for me as trying new food to something as difficult as going to a big event and hanging out. I was gonna employ is tonight at my city's Independence Day fireworks. But then I didn't go. It's my senior summer and I just really want to have fun and make memories.

I really want some sort of closure from my almost relationship because it has been tearing me up for 6 months im just not sure if its too late to say what ive been afraid to say.

I've spent the last 6 months falling in love with this guy. He's helped me through my fluctuating mental health and was one of my Closest friends. Lately he's been acting like two different people and its making me emotionally unhealthy. I've fallen too deep to turn back. I Can't give up, but He's now taken Despite saying he doesn'twant a Relationship. He used to be the only person I could go to but he is now another person I hide from. I dont know what to do.

Why is this today that everybody is just playing role of actors to be sincere and then comes when you get to know the reality check and the same was with me struggling to lie with a man that has no morals and so feel depressed well filled a divorce from divorce lawyer Alexandria, VA and to take revenge he dissapeared.

Sometimes I relapse with my self harm, and that makes me feel really sad, but happy at the same time. It feels like getting together with an old friend again. I like to feel the pain sometimes, and I know that I shouldn't.

I don't know where I am or where I am going.

i am sorry for not been a good daughter and making you cry.

I feel like the worst kind of human being. I cheated on my fiancears ago before we were engaged. Truthfully, I love him to pieces and know I want to marry him, but we haven't had sex in years. I think my guilt over cheating is to blame and I don't know how to heal the situation without losing him, but I feel like I'm starting to lose myself. I'm angry, guilty, crying, anxious, depressed, you name it. I just need some kind of guidance without feeling like the awful person I am. I know how terrible what I did was, but not how to go about not defining the rest of my life by one horrible mistake.

So I just began seeing this guy and for the first time in my life I don't feel like I deserve him. He is good and kind and innocent and I stopped being those things a long time ago. He is crazy about me but I'm worried that I will corrupt him in some way and that would kill me

I got involved with a 35 yr for about 9 months, he has 2 little boys i took care of at the daycare i work at and his wife never knew. I was already in a relationship when i was involved with this man. But i ended it with this man about a year ago and i have not seen him since nor his kids. I feel I need some serious help. Im not happy with myself. I didnt know it was this bad before but i really hate myself. Im greedy, selfish, and very munipulative. i dont care who i emotionally hurt to get my way.