Confession
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I sometimes resent my family for keeping me alive.
I was raped a couple of months ago. I got pregnant and miscarried
@ElleMarie
@ElleMarie
That is terrible and packed full of stress and emotions. I wish people had more respect for fellow human beings, whoever he is, he is scum.
I wish I could leave this town before our relatives birthday season begins (every week for half a year) so I would have a good excuse to not going to the parties........
Not that I really go out much anyways, but I haven't stepped outside in a week or so. Usually I just stay in the car when we go out...but still. Part of me wants to go sit on the bus and see where I end up, and the other part of me wants to never leave the house again
@Synthetic
I dont want tk leave the house either. I get it. But food job with thinking of change
I feel as though I am incapable of connecting with anyone, or if I do it will only be temporary. My lonliness and depression drove me to attempt suicide on several occasions. It has gotten to the extent that I appear to have a carefree attitude, but it's only because I hold no value in my own life so things that should be stressors don't effect me.
@adaptablehouse7827
This too shall pass. Nothing is constant and it wil change. Emotions are temporary.
As to how to deal with terrible circumstances that juat won't change? I tried to keep working at it but that was exhausting. I just had to learn to accept. When you reach rock bottom, there is always a trap door. So thatmeans there is something there that's still good and you know that because you just lost it.
I'm so angry with my family and hate them so much, I work extra hours at work.
Cw: family
I feel my love for my family can only ever be superficial and pretend. It's bad enough that they never stand up for me when another of them is targetting me, but I'm also very different from the rest when it comes to ethics/ideology. I wish my family would be proud of me, but I wish more that I could be proud of them.
I feel slightly relieved that my foster kittens are now gone despite being super cute and adorable. They caused a lot of mess and scratched me at times and while I'm glad they were in my care I might take a break before fostering again. I just hope they find good homes...
I worry that I'll either never find somebody to love who actually loves me, or I'll end up being someone's emotional crutch again, and they'll use me and drop me.
@MorsVicta honestly, I feel that^. I want to trust and give everyone the same shot but it
@Crystalskies15
Jist member ur get like
@reservedexcitment I
@Crystalskies15
Sorry, I wrote that half asleep.
I can relate, I hardly feel liked at all, I want that close relationship, but cant seem to find it with the right people. Love is scary because it can hurt as much as it feels good.
I'm scared cause I'm a recovering addict from pain pills but been on adderall since I was 7 went off them for 2 months and the passed 2 weeks been back on them and abusing them and I flushed all them now I'm scared of withdrawal tomorrow
@Amberbail
Sometimes, working with someone, helps, rather than doing it alone
Confession:
I lied to my boyfriend and told him I had booked another appointment with my therapist.