Confession

I hate myself so much because I get paranoid of everyone and I think that everyone hates me. If someone doesn't say hi one day I automatically assume they don't want to be seen with me. With these thoughts, I feel so selfish that I think everything's about me. I keep telling myself that I'm not important enough for people to think of me at all. I just have these two conflicting thoughts and I hate myself for thinking this way.

Yup, I'm in love with someone who has two kids and has a third one on the way on and it feels like I'm being stabbed. I wish he didn't fill my head with lies of us being together I knew I was stupid to fall for it yet here I am paying for it.

Im a observer. I observe people humans and everything! Plus im a germaphobe.... I just hate people fro pitying others for being selfish for being greedy for being human for being racist and for being born. Humans i hate everyone even my self.. I hate the world so much that i dont even the world as colorful as u think. Time flies by too fast even thought im doing nothing. I dont even laugh anymore vut forcing it out. I dont know i just hate people and everyone.

I'm 19 years old and it's my first time on a platform like this. I hate my life I hate myself and my family right now I'm in bed crying and my roommate has no clue (I'm in college taking summer classes). I began thinking about ending my life when I was 7 years old and every time I think of that moment my heart breaks... How bad must life be for a 7year old to want to die? years later and i don't know what life is like without being depressed hating myself and wanting to die ... I'm fat I'm ugly I'm poor ! And I don't have an amazing personality I wish I wasn't me

I have a habit of telling my friends all of my small secrets in order to hide big ones. I feel that if I "feed" them my small secrets, they wouldn't be curious about my bigger ones.

I don't think I will ever love myself. Every time I tell others WHY I don't think I ever will, they give me the generic "how do you expect anyone to love you, if you can't love yourself?" answer. It makes me so angry. I don't feel good enough. I don't ever feel worthy. I feel like I'm letting God down by thinking this. I cry every time I have to look at myself in the mirror. I know I'm the Designated Ugly Fat Friend. Guys don't ask about me; they ask me about my friends. I am not worth the happy ending. I'm invisible to guys.

I've been told to "get over it" so many times, I've had so many mantras drilled into my head of how I should be feeling, that when someone asks me, I spit out the lies. I don't tell them that it's been a year, on top of twenty before that, of feeling like this. I don't tell them that I'm drowning. I don't tell them the truth. I spit out rose-colored outlooks and I say all the right things and they smile and pat me on the back and say "Gee, you're doing so well. You're so wise. You'll be fine. Think of it as an adventure." All I do is lie about this, because when I reveal the truth people either pity me or tell me to toughen up and get over it. Lying is so tiring.

It's hard for me to believe, when people compliment on my look. I am not pretty and it feels like they just feel so sorry for meand they need to compliment on something.

I hate my parents and I blame them for my entire problems, since they gave birth to me to this stupid world that's full of problems and it's pointless to live in

I'm still new here but I want to help people. I want to help them with what are they feeling right now. If ever anyone wants my help I won't hesitate to help you