Dear ______,

Dear ______, I'm so scared of losing you. I know you're scared and I wish you would talk to me. I wish I knew what to say. I'm sorry for disappointing you. I've tried so hard to make you happy and everything I've done, I did to make you and ____ happy. I just want you to be proud of me. I don't think you noticed but I asked you once. I wish you would treat _____ better, the whole family in fact. I know you're just angry because you're scared and upset and just fed up with life but you and ____ are everything I look up to and I only ever really look forward to seeing you all. I'm so ashamed sometimes that I'm your _____ but only because I want to be perfect for you. I love you and I'm sorry for everything.

Dear______,

I hate you. I hate you for what you became. What you allowed yourself to become all because you spend two decades worshipping at the temple of the woman who never saw you as you saw her. I hate that you threw it all away for a second (third? fourth?) chance at something that you knew in your mind wasn't real. I hate you for the night that you turned your back on your best friend. I hate you for the night that you almost lost your life over this shit. I hate you for that one moment where you put your selfishness and pain above YOUR OWN CHILD! I hate that when she hurt you, you hurt her and so many others right back. Acting as she did. Tearing the relationships of others apart for your own gain. Your revenge was sweet for a moment, then it was as empty as you are now. I hate you for wasting your life on this. I hate you because you still have not found the strength or courage to mend yourself. I hate you because when you look back at me in the mirror, all I see is your weakness and failure.

Dear ______,

i am in emotional pain. I hate that I keep soothing the cracks like the source will somehow stop burning me up because it's out of my control. I hate that I did everything right but here years later I am still in the same pain I keep soothing over and over again. I hate how resentful and jealous I get because the wrong done to me was done right to and for so many others and I had to sit there and watch their happiness while my own misery deepened. I hate that the cracks on my heart and soul will never go away although they smooth over from my soothing they shouldn't be there in the first place. I hate that there isn't a better option. I hate that there is no better decision. I hate that I keep being true kind and loving to be unceremoniously disregarded for all the pain that I'm going through while I attend to and support others because you should love despite the lack if love you receive. I hate that it makes me bitter and resentful. I hate that it's all just luck and the world keeps shitting on me and not sharing it. I hate god. I hate that I hate god for letting this happen to me. I hate being empathetic not because I don't want to support others but because my empathy comes from being hurt so deeply. I hate that I did everything right and I'm still in pain no matter what I do it's just pain and I'm so damn tired of it. There is no out. It's just life. I have to live it in pain everyday while everyone ignores just how much I feel like I bare. I just resent it all and my helplessness. I keep talking, I keep meditating, I keep soothing and it keeps coming back. I'm Just so tired of it.

Dear ______,

I wish I could tell you that I'm profusely sorry for whatever I've done. You have always been such a wonderful and charismatic individual who always made me feel happy. You were something that I always wanted but I couldn't have due to certain circumstances and norms of the society that we've to abide with. You were my best friend , someone whom I'd confide in. You were an antidote to me. Who knew after some time , I was thinking of those simple yet memorable moments we shared. Although , from day 1 I hurt you , you respected me and gave it your best to make it work out. All that I was sad was that I missed the old 'you' , and the new 'you' was pretty unreasonable to me. Remember , how good friends we were ? I spoiled it my good friend , and I am sorry. You are one of a kind , and wait for me till I meet you again in the near future.

Dear_______,

It has been four years, three months, and twenty-three days since the cancer sent you away. I'm all right most days. You raised me well. I am mentally strong, emotionally capable, and optimistic. Death is nothing but a short parting of ways until we reunite in the ether.

My thoughts stray to you often during this holiday season though. If this is weakness, I cannot help it. No matter how much time passes, I shall always love you. I wish that you were here to see the pale lemon yellow sunshine that catches the crystals in the snow. My heart yearns for one more chance to chat with you over Red Rose tea.

Where do souls go when they shake loose? Wherever you are now,_______, I hope these words reach you. Please know that I love you forever and for always, to the ends of all the worlds and back.

Dear _____,
I wish I could just tell you straight out how much you mean to me and how much I have hopelessly fallen for you. I never would have thought that the boy I met for a couple of hours back in 2008 would appear in my life again several times. I never would have thought that the boy I thought was cute would soon become my closest friend only for me to have to leave again. I never would have thought that you would appear in my life again after I struggled through so much adversity. I never would have thought that you would be the first to say "great job" and actually mean it when you saw me struggling. I never thought that you would be the first person I could talk to without having a panic attack. I never thought that someone would be able to make me feel calm just by sitting next to me. And after all these thoughts, here we are. Me, falling in love with you, hoping that you notice. You, adapting to my personality and rejoicing with me in my accomplishments, not being afraid of my silence. I wish I could tell you that you are a good man and every day I get to spend with you is a great day. I wish I could tell you I love you.

Dearest,

I love you,you motivate me to find what life has to offer, you support me in my endeavors, and you understand my hardships and guide me in happier directions. I'm so happy that I found you and that you've decided to love me, I love you baby girl, forever and always.

Sincerely,

Your love

Dear ___________,

I'm sorry this has happened to you. Your life was going to be golden and perfect, and I was going to protect you and watch over you and never let you be hurt for a single second. Instead, you've been torn apart so many times that we've both lost count. I'm still here for you, baby girl. I'll always be here, and I know that you understand that. I haven't done such a good job taking care of you these last few years, but I'm going to do better, I promise. We're gonna make it, kid, you and me.

Dear ______, I'm sorry I seem like I'm avoiding you. I'm not. I really really like and I'm just nervous. I'm writing this tonight to get other stuff off my mind. I'm too scared to say anything even asking for a number. Cuz This is when my social anxiety kicks in. I'm so sorry I haven't said anything. I want to. Sometimes you look pissed and deep into thought and I know something's wrong and I want to ask. But your one of those people that just don't share your feelings easily or that much. Sometimes I even just want to give you a hug cuz you look so sad. But then there are the times when you get out of class, for example, and then your happy and talking. Your probably just bored in class. But then there are those times where you get out of class and keep the same mood and talk to no one. I want to make sure your okay. I know we are not serious friends we are just those goofy friends that just make inappropriate jokes and just have a good time. I don't even think we consider our sleds as friends. But we have to spend three hours around each other every day and I would consider you my friend. I just want to make sure your okay. You distract me from what's going on in my life and your super funny, I want to thank you for this. I kinda went a little too deep( or really deep. Oops.) but I want to make sure your okay after what people have said to you, I don't want you to get trapped like I was. I dot know if you've been trapped before or not. Well I hope you'll except the weirdo I am as a friend. Hope your ok.

Dear _____,

I miss you. We used to be best friends and then you went away to college. We never even text anymore. It's really sad for me because I know you've replaced me, even though you'd never say it that way. Your roommate is basically the older me, which annoys me because you so clearly prefer her. Your new college friends are cooler than me. Don't deny it, it's true. I'm just a high school senior, and you're in college. I wish you would remember the little people a little more.